Now that’s a kick in the pants

20 Jan 2011 by flerly, Comments Off on Now that’s a kick in the pants

I have to say I am thankful for the years I’ve spent, if somewhat sporadically, keeping a journal that includes my workout and diet efforts. I’ve repost and tagged a couple entries as “way-back machine” which are a couple of my usual “this time I REALLY mean it” posts, and it’s painful to sit here and know how little follow through I’ve had. Depressing really. Almost makes you just want to give up trying.

On the other hand, though I didn’t repost them, I did read through some pretty inspiring entries again, mostly bootcamp in preparation for Jessie’s wedding, where I recorded myself doing some amazing things that I can’t even imagine doing right now, like two bootcamp classes in one day?!? I walk/jogged at 10K in Sept 2009. Seriously, I did that.

Project 40 is a year down, with about 9 months to go, and my weight has yo-yo’d around but come back to settle right in the spare-tire area at about the same starting weight. I am grateful for the treadmill desk, in that my former life as a continuously neck/shoulder pain having chair-person has gone away. I may not walk while I work as often as I’d liked, but I do still stand or dance or sometimes walk, and in general I’m in much less just general pain that I used to be. Hasn’t really put a dent in the weight-loss, though.

So now, to really achieve my Project-40 goal, I need to lose about 10lbs a month, which seems way too much to be achievable. That being said, I’m not going to change my goal. This is either going to be a redoubled effort, a massive fail, or only a moderate fail that is actually maybe half my goal, but losing even half that sounds pretty damned good to me right now.

Honestly, I don’t know how I’m going to do it. I’ve got a workout buddy again, which really lifts my spirits. I’ve got a twice-weekly climbing group keeping me more active. I’ve still got the treadmill desk, and the new videos and workout game gadgets from Christmas in my newly setup upstairs workout/tv area. The opportunities to move and workout surround me, so if I’m a sloth, then I must be a REALLY good one to ignore all that.

I probably ought to make a more concerted effort to log calories at the very least, but I am notoriously a failure at that longterm. So much so that it is depressing to consider starting again. Thus, perhaps, a compromise is in order. Perhaps one strict calorie-counting week a month is doable? And the rest of the time will be the rest of the time.

Anyway, that’s the way it is, depressing as it may be. If I’m fat at 40, then it’s nobody’s fault but my own.

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