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Well, I’ve had my meeting. And now that I’ve had about an hour to think on it, I’m getting very pissy about it. Again, nothing is working out.

Sure, yeah.. JOY! I started today all happy at how I had managed to convert one of our older giant graphic sites into lighter text-based site using all CSS, with no font or table tags, and it looks pretty much the same as it did.

Then, JOY! I’m on the list of “those retaining long-term employment” and was invited to dinner, which to be honest, I’m not going to because i have less than a 1/4 tank of gas, $2 cash, and $5 in the bank until Friday. Can’t afford to drive downtown and pay to park, even if it is a free meal. But that’s no big deal, I can tell everyone I have other dinner plans, even though I don’t unless I want to drive myself up there, too. Not sure right now why that option came up in the first place, anyway.

So, now it seems I get to spend the evening home alone, which is fine by me. At this moment, I’m sick of people and could stand not to be around any of them. I’m tired of shiny things being dangled in front me that there’s no promise I can actually have. The people not on the list are getting $1K to stay to the end and one week’s severance pay. Some of them got an even closer layoff date, too, like Sept 1st instead of Oct 1st. So, what’s that.. Hi, two weeks notice for you! Those on the list got a verbal promise that FNIS has finally gotten their head screwed on straight and deemed to let StevieD manage this department like they hired him to do for a minimum 13 month period, to see if he can smooth things out. So, that’s a verbal promise to us of employment for at least 13 months more. Did we want in? Say yes, then you get the speech about “Now we have to get passed the anger and fear of layoffs and strive to get the job done.” Fine then. Whatever. I don’t even care.

Keep paying me and I’ll keep hanging out here, studying, and bitching to LJ. This fucking weekend is con, which I’m not going to. Instead, I may get to play house while Jim uses us as a hotel (by my invite, I’m not bitter) and Nick visits to go for a motorcycle ride day with James on Sunday. Oohh.. and Monday may be taken up with the boys doing LAN games at Bruce’s. What fun. Sounds like a fabulous three day weekend to me, no? I can’t wait.. woo hoo. I love sitting around picking my nose while people have things to do.

I should have skipped out and seen the damn Hulk at 4. Crap.