Someone buy me a new life

Monday — do I get up for morning Jazzercise at 9:30-10:30? No, because I’m expecting a phone call regarding the copyright issue, which I’ve been expecting since Thursday actually, but today is the day the boss is supposed to call the guy on the issue — only after he’s talked to me.

Do I get it? No. I should have gone. By shortly after lunch I was fuming over the emails flying back and forth over the issue, and the ridiculous notice that the guy wants to take us to small claims court over the issue — not the people scamming him with a 3 ridiculous bills for sites he doesn’t own. Instead he’s going to settle with them, since they threaten his credit, and sue us for the money he had to pay in the settlement. He’s sent us a letter telling us his lawyer says we have no defense.

I truly hate this job enough to just kill myself rather than sit here. I don’t want to have anything to do with this entire industry anymore. As is, if we really get sued? We’ll just close and the paychecks will just stop.

It’s far beyond time to find a new job — but I think it’s the mental block of hating this industry so much that is my bigger problem. I don’t want to look for a new job, because I don’t want to sit in front of a computer or talk to stupid customers for anybody. I need to figure out what I DO want to do and fast.

Anywho, so I could be going to the 4:45 evening class — and I’m dressed and ready for it. I’ll get back in time to turn around and go climbing, but I’m just not feeling climbing at all anyway. It just depresses me to go, as I don’t really want to try climbing anything these days. I may be ready for some time off that endeavor. Yet, here I sit, typing instead of driving. I can’t sit around here all the time waiting for a ridiculous phone call about a stupid work issue where I don’t have any more insight to offer beyond the 50 millions email explanations I’ve already sent.

Another instance of me allowing work stress to interfere with my healthy life plans, I guess. But the paycheck to pay for the life plans is pretty important, and thus can’t be ignored.