on obsession

I feel like an idiot, but I can’t help but get all sorts of weird feelings when I see Jim and Mag together, and I know it’s jealousy. It’s not like I still want him, it’s just that I resent that all the things I tried to do with him that he resisted he now smiles and does with her happily. She is so much like me, so much in common, especially interests… I’ve pointed this out to Jim a few times and he just tells me that he has changed and is ready for all that now, and it was just bad timing. Like that makes me feel better… it genuinely hurts to see them together. If she were different, maybe.. but as is.. I keep hearing things they discuss and experiencing painful deja vu.